Thursday, December 1, 2011

hold your own Brenna

Last night was a hard one. I had to do something that I never dreamed I would be doing. I sat on my bed and watched my baby girl sit on the floor and cling to a little black box that contains the remains of her only sister. Her sister Alyssa. Last night was the first time shes gone into our room to see her. Up until then she didn't want to see her sister in that way, she hasn't been ready but Brenna had had a bad day at school yesterday and she came home and found herself wanting to be near her sister, I think wanting so badly to hear what her sister would be saying to her during this time. That's what sisters do right? They share their secrets, their dreams, their likes and dislikes. Every girl needs a sister when certain things happen in life, to give them that much needed pep talk about what ever it is that's bugging them. When boys disappoint you, when they hurt you, it's your sister who is there to tell you things like, "you are too good for him anyways" "he said what to you? Im gonna kick his butt"! Sisters are there when you're trying on your wedding dress, when you're trying to decide if you want to wear the jeans or the cute dress. My heart breaks for my Brenna in knowing that her sister is no longer physically here with her but she has left Brenna with so many memories that will always be there just exactly when Brenna needs them to be. I will forever miss my girls together..but last night..while I sat there watching Brenna hold on to her sister, they were together again. Hold your own Brenna.